Blog/Podcasts — Awaken the Dance

OTHERING #2

We "other" our emotions, and parts of ourselves all the time, without even knowing it. We ALL have feelings, coping strategies, and needs that have gone unmet or unseen. There have been times in our lives when who we are and how we've expressed ourselves have been rejected by the people around us. Or they've been so painful or shameful that we have buried them deep inside of us, we have rejected these parts of ourselves. This is not unusual, this is not unique- this is what we do. It's ok. Deep breath. Slower. Again.

HealingHannah KinderlehrerSeptember 25, 2019OTHERING, emotions, reclaiming, emotional, shame, needs, desires, inner child

OTHERING #1

I had been saying to them, on some level, with some habitual and almost subconscious form of commumication, "YOU ARE NOT OK, I DON'T LIKE YOU, I WILL ONLY LIKE YOU IF YOU CHANGE." Can you imagine talking to someone else like that? Or someon else's body? Never.
So I changed the conversation.

Embodiment, Gratitude, Healing, SupportHannah KinderlehrerSeptember 19, 2019self-love, self acceptance, body, body love, welcome, acceptance

HONOR YOUR VESSEL

To be brutally honest, I would be completely justified in hating my body. It would be understandable if I felt betrayed, angry and resentful of my body.

But my body and I have become friends. Good friends. We're besties. This body has shown me that symptoms come and go, emotions come and go, and in fact, shocker- everything comes and goes. My body has taught me about immpermanence. And in this learning, I have fallen in love. Deeply.

THE GIFT OF YOU

There was always someone to hug, kiss, play with their hair, etc...The huge amount of love I have in my body-being was able to express itself to willing subjects and I felt so nourished and met, I was in heaven.

Now the problem with this is, that when everyone left, I am now back in my own small family with a deeply introverted husband and son, and a tween son at that, who is appropriately and thank heavens, expressing boundaries around how often I can kiss him and attack him with my mama bear love. When I say "I love you" he says "I am aware of this." I call this a victory. But ..where then, does all this love go?

Pleasure, Body WisdomHannah KinderlehrerAugust 22, 2019love, self-love, relationships, embodiment, dance, nourishment, gifts, medicine, magic, Family

CONNECTION

Do I indentify with the emotions and storm of my current irritation/upheavel or do I relax back a few steps? Can I instead relate with that best self, the one who lives in me, ever present, ever available. She is ancient. She is strong. Her body is soft and welcoming, her hips are wide, her arms are open. In a word, she is home.